Hi, I am Mireu, a Korean living in Singapore with my husband and a 7 year-old daughter.
I teach Korean as a freelancer, but haven't been so happy. I was pursuing to become a piano teacher. While preparing for the piano recital exam, I overworked and my little finger started to hurt. I had to give up the exam, and it was devastating. Not only that, my other fingers start to hurt one by one, now it's spread to both hands and wrists. Always tingling, sometimes burning, and each finger take turn and hurt.
Now I'm not even thinking of piano or career, it's so painful and I just want my normal life back. I don't want to lose the other job(teaching Korean) but it's been difficult to maintain work in this pain. All this happened 3 months ago. Doctors couldn't find anything from MRI except some swelling on my little finger, and no doctor, no treatment has helped. Finally the doctor said mere injury should have been cured by now, and prescribed me Lyrica, saying it might be neurological problem. - I chose not to take it.
Then one day, I came across Dr. Sarno's theory and got convinced I must be TMS. After reading his book, surprisingly, my pain came down from 10 to about 5. But I'm still hovering there, last few days were even worse, sometimes having pain on arms and feet, indigestion, etc. It's so discouraging to be continuously sick. I thought a more organized program might help. There's no TMS doctor in this country or in my culture. - Thank you for setting this program. I really have a hope this time.
I am almost sure I am TMS. My personality trait - worrying and nervous, perfectionist etc -fits too. I just need more assurance and faith in this methodology. Just trying to ignore pain and dig into my psychological problems only can cure - sounds like a big leap. I completely understand my injury is causing fear and stress, wouldn't go away because of that very stress. But need a little more conviction that my psychological problem initiated the pain, not the other way around.
Please help me;
1.Am I a TMS? Can I get better with this program if I try hard?
2.I feel like I'm in a glass wall looking out the normal people living - depression. From what I see, this pain caused my depression, not the other way around. I try to dig up my past and present psychological issues, - I do have a few issues, my mother, family, failure of career... but all seems trivial compared to what I'm going through now. Should I keep working on the past psychological issues?
Thank you for reading.